well yesterday was hands down the worst day in my tennis career. to lose like that and be totally embarrassed to be on a tennis court is not something ive ever felt before. I was nervous and just couldnt serve at all, on a grass court if all u can do is get some second serves in and the guy is playing well and a slapping the ball around, its going to be over quick and be a disaster.
I just have to some how move on from it, yesterday was a dark day. I havent forgotten how to play tennis, and its just one match. I am on good form and have improved massively regardless of some comments that i have seen and read. Suggesting im in the wrong sport and am no better than a park player. If someone was watching me for the first time yesterday then thats fair enough, they are entitled to that opinion as i was horrific.
So need to used that and work on that to my advantage. Pre qualis for wimbledon for me, but this weekend qualifying for wimbledon, go out work hard and try to play well more importantly and put that behind me. One for the weak mentally that could stay with you for a LONG time. luckily im not.
Sorry to anyone who came to watch me, i felt so bad for the most part letting people down who have backed my thus far. Im sure at some stage ill repay them with good results.
Fitzy, mate, that sounds like an absolute nightmare. So sorry you had such a bad time of it yesterday, but thanks for having the guts to come on here & try to explain the inexplicable. I'm sure you have the sympathy, not to mention admiration for what you've achieved this year ( ), of all the regulars on here who know you're not one to shirk a challenge. I'm equally sure we're all willing you to qualify for Wimbledon. The very best of British at the weekend.
Hey Fitzy - as others have said, we all have bad days - just that yours are rather more public than ours! I'm sure you'll pick yourself up and go on to greater things. Good luck in Wimbledon qualies!!
queens for me sign in is today. instead of playing the second nottingham. Woken up to horrendous weather today in london anyway. Exactly right, im just someone who cannot stand failure and thats what drives me on. What ever im doing i couldnt live with myself if i was a failure at it, be it as small as making dinner, so as large as my career. My bad days are more public, just wanted to crawl into a hole and hide for a very very long time. over now though, my hand is completely fine, but last week i strained my neck so badly i had to take 3 days off, of those days 2 of them i could hardly move, but thats by the by and maybe have had some impact on the match being tight, but not the main reason i performed how i did.
I feel more comfortable fighting for things, as i guess its what i know